It’s funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I’m standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don’t really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I’m not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That’s coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I’m only left with used-to-be’s
And once upon a song
Now I know you’re not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don’t come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can’t believe that
I could be so blind
It’s like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn’t mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
This song never fail to remind me the fact that I delude myself for nothing. But at least now I know I’m not going to be so blind (: now fall baby fall, just like the rain washes it all. I’m so song stricken. Haha.
I guess life is like that. The least expected would also always give you the best surprise. I’m at loss for words. And I don’t wanna say anything negative of the things I have been dealing with myself. The fluctuations, the fight within myself. It doesn’t matter anymore, I think I’m just like that. I have no expectations on anyone else because nobody is going to matter to me except my family and people whom I trust. It’s at times suffocating, I know I’m born to do things alone. But I know I won’t be the only one. I love my new classmates, they are really fun to hang out with and I really don’t expect them to entertain me or anything. But I feel loved by them and a few other people closer to me in my life that matters to me at this time and now. A wise sayning goes :”don’t think about the past and the future for you are living in the present henceforth;live the moment.” Every moment I live I can only feel grateful for people who cares for me although sometimes I tend to be such an ass to place my angst on the wrong person. /: I need to rid this habit of mine plus the cursing and swearing. This shall be a mental note to self to stop doing anything detrimental to myself or the people around me whom I love dearly or vice versa , especially when they are not the cause of what I’m feeling right now or should I say then. Self-control. Can’t wait for tmr(: gonna gym with Shona and go for rapture(I can’t help but laugh when I think of what Audrey said about the meaning of rapture in the Biblical term)!! till then,ciaos! (;
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I really love water views. It makes me feel so calm, and thoughts of anything else just stops :’)
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Wish i’ll be able to catch this kind of beautiful seaside view of sunset/sunrise somewhere, probably not in Singapore.
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